People often wonder why i seem to avoid conflicts and roll over and take stuff , whereas others would confront that was upsetting them...but I cant do that . You know that flutter you get in your heart when you confront someone or get confronted?...well i get that too..but with it comes chest pain, shortness of breathe, decreased focus, a drop in my mood and tiredness ...so why would i subject myself to stress when i can do the safer thing and not cause it . In addition my heart has started to hurt even during work which is a pain cause it causes me to lose focus, slow down and that just stresses me out more which feeds into causing More heart issues ....

I'm tired of not having a decent way to get food for myself...i am a very picky shopper and cause i take a long time i feel stressed whenever i take the bus or a friend takes me.

Got a question ... on Dec 10th my mom purchased 125 gallons of Home Heating Oil...on Dec 29th all 125 is Gone...now according to my thinking , there is no way that mom * she kept the heater on 1 its lowest setting , could use that amount of oil, even with our older oil stove..

Any thoughts?

its German, has wheels, and is blue....

Tired of people that take something I enjoy and try to ruin it .

Example 1 : When I look at babyfur pics after work...I am tired of the trolls that whine and bitch about it....if you dont like it , dont look, its that simple people.

Example 2 : When I am in IRC and people get all whiney about there being discussion of being messy in a room for BabyFurs...babies mess, again if you dont like it , dont visit the room.

Example 3: People that are so extreme in their Likes and Dislikes that they try to change other people, wither its in regards to places to go, eat, listen to music, or whatever....so what you hate punk...dont like it...then dont look at a punk music video and bitch about the fact it exists.

I have a problem...I want to play FF: Dissidia and Crisis Core but I lack a PSP ...and Everytime I see a commericial for Dissidia it really annoys me , so I guess my point is....Why do game companies do this to people, I know profit is part of it but IF you are going to make a good game for the PSP , You should have to make one for the DS.

I would want a PSP if I had the money but maybe i will get one for my birthday or christmas ...

LAST...
1. Last beverage: Water
2. Last phone call: Mom
3. Last text message: Never texted
4. Last song you listened to: Unforgivan 3 , Metallica
5. Last time you cried: Months ago

HAVE YOU EVER…
6. Dated someone twice: No
7. Been cheated on: No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it?: No
9. Lost someone special?: Yes
10. Been depressed?: Yes
11. Been dumped?: Yep

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Black
13. Red
14. Gray

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends: Yes
16. Fallen out of love: No
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes
21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: Yes
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: about half now?
23. How many kids do you want to have: None
24. Do you have any pets: Yes
25. Do you want to change your name: Nope
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Had a party at home
27. What time did you wake up today: 8 am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Drawing
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Forza 3
30. Last time you saw your father: over a month ago
32. What are you listening to right now: Adult Swim
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I don't Recall
34. What’s getting on your nerves right now?: Itching, repeat tv shows
36. What's your real name: Dave
38. Zodiac sign: Scorpio
39. Male or female: Male
40. Elementary: Ararat Va
41. Middle School: N/a
42. High school: PCHS, Stuart Va
43. Hair color: Brown
44. Long or short: Short
45. Height: 5' 10
46. Do you have a crush on someone?: Not Sure
47. What do you like about yourself?: Uniqueness and Honest
48. Piercings: None here
49. Tattoos: None
50. Righty or lefty: Lefty and proud

FIRSTS :
51. First surgery: age 3, hernia
52. First piercing: Never
53. First tattoo: Never
54. First best friend: Chastine
55. First sport you joined: None
56. First pet: Jed ,my german shep
57. First vacation remembered: Trip to Tenn
58. First concert: Warped Tour 03
59. First crush: Justin S
60. First love: Same.

RIGHT NOW:
61. Sitting doing this quiz.
62. Watching Family Guy
63. Being Itchy
64. Bored sorta
65. Full.

YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids?: Not really
67. Want to get married: Yes
68. Careers in mind?: No Idea

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
69. Lips or eyes: Eyes
70. Hugs or kisses: Hugs
71. Shorter or taller: Shorter
72. Older or Younger: Doesn't Matter
73. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
74. Nice stomach or nice arms: Brain
75. Tattoos or piercings: Dont Care
76. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
77. Hook-up or relationship: Not sure
78. Trouble maker or hesitant: Not sure

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger: Yes
80. Fell on the head: Yes - Had to go to the hospital
81. Lost glasses/contacts: No
82. Had sex on first date: Yes
83. Broken someone’s heart: Yes
84. Had your own heart broken: Yes
85. Been arrested: Nope
86. Turned someone down: Yes
87. Cried when someone died: Yes
88. Broken a bone: Yes on a school bus

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself: Yes.
90. Miracles: Yes
91. Love at first sight: Yes
92. Heaven: Sorta
93. Santa Claus: Maybe
94. Angels: Yes... Spirits and "Ghosts" too :)
95. Kissing on the first date: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now?: Just one...but...
97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?: Just one....more is too tiring :p
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? Maybe
99. What’s the one thing you cannot live without?: Food
100. Posting this as 100 Truths?: Done

Now, it's your turn! Copy this and paste it in your LJ and answer the questions.

Liking it here in PA, people are nice , actually Move when they need to and not be all slow and crap like sw VA people , AC has been a blast and a half so far.

Thanks to Kelby , Rama, Lokai , Tigeris, Lil Pup , Goliath for making this my first con alot better ^^

Thanks to Fox_cub for running the Hub, its been awesome so far .

Off topic : my x box live tag is fire_lupine06 for anyone that wants to play with me ( god that didn't sound right now did it :p

yeah i now have twtter @fire_lupine06, just letting ya'll know.

1: Coke Products or Pepsi Products?
2. Favorite Shoe Brand?
3. Favorite Bookstore?
4. Favorite Ice Cream Store?
5. Favorite Fast Food?
6. Favorite Casual Dining?
7. Favorite Magazine?
8. Favorite Car Company?
9. Favorite Computer Brand?
10. Favorite Grocery Store?

I guess I should fill it out too

1. Pepsi
2. DC
3. Barnes and Noble
4.Coldstone Creamery
5. Burger King
6. Prolly Olive Garden
7. Grassroots Motorsports
8. Ford I guess but i like alot of cars.
9. Only own Compaqs
10. Food Lion.

Kissed any one of your LiveJournal friends? — Yup
Been arrested? — Nope
Kissed someone you didn't like? — Nope
Slept in until 5 PM? — Yes
Fallen asleep at work/school? — Yup...its called Math Class :p
Held a snake? — Yes.
Ran a red light? — Yes.
Been suspended from school? — Yup...even expelled
Experienced love at first sight? — Yes
Totaled your car in an accident? — No
Been fired from a job? — Nope...I always quit first.
Fired somebody? — Nope
Sung karaoke? — Yup
Pointed a gun at someone? —  Nope
Did something you told yourself you wouldn't? — Yup
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? — Yup
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? — Yup
Kissed in the rain? — Nope
Had a close brush with death (your own)? — Maybe?
Saw someone die? — Nope
Played Spin-the-Bottle? — Nope
Smoked a cigar? — Nope
Sat on a rooftop? — Yup
Smuggled something into another country? — No
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? — No
Broken a bone? — Yup
Skipped school? — Yup its called senior year :p
Eaten a bug? — Yup
Sleepwalked? — Nope
Walked on a moonlit beach? — Yup
Ridden a motorcycle? — Yup
Dumped someone? — Yup
Forgotten your anniversary? — Nope
Lied to avoid a ticket? — Yes but it didnt work.
Ridden in a helicopter? — Nope
Shaved your head? — Nope
Blacked out from drinking? — Nope
Played a prank on someone? — Yup
Hit a home run? — Nope
Felt like killing someone? — Yup
Cross-dressed? — Yup
Been falling-down drunk? — Nope
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? — I dunno
Eaten snake? — Nope
Marched/Protested? — Nope
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? — No
Puked on an amusement ride? — No.
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? — No.
Knitted? — No.
Been on TV? — Nope
Shot a gun? — Yes.
Skinny-dipped? — Yup
Given someone stitches? — Nope
Eaten a whole habenero pepper? — Yup
Ridden a surfboard? — Nope
Drunk straight from a liquor bottle? — Yup
Had surgery? — Yup
Streaked? — Nope
Been taken by ambulance to a hospital? — Yup
Tripped on mushrooms? — Nope
Passed out when NOT drinking? — Yup
Peed on a bush? — Yup
Donated Blood? — Nope
Grabbed electric fence? — Yup
Eaten alligator meat? - Nope
Eaten cheesecake? — Yup
Killed an animal when not hunting? — Yup
Peed your pants in public? — ....Yup
Snuck into a movie without paying? - Nope
Written graffiti? — Yup
Still love someone you shouldn't? — Nope
Think about the future? — Yup
Been in handcuffs? — Nope
Believe in love? — Yup
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? — Yup

Okay So I had the tilt test. it was Positive ...my bp dropped and my HR went from 70 to 120 ( 50 points ) and he called today and said " yes there a mild drop in bp, and that was most likely caused by you losing weight"...wth...

Why cant I find a doctor that knows what he is doing and can help me ....

 I went for my Tilt Table Test today , Got there alil late but oh well . After they check me in, and i get changed into one of the gowns..., 12 ekg leads were put on, had to have my chest shaved, strapped to a table, lied flat for 20 mins then left at 70 degrees for 45 mins, oh and the iv line pumping saline in me

The results...I have POTS.

Name: David Allen
Nickname: Fire, Dave, Davey
Fursona: Red Wolf
Date of Birth: 11/10/83
Birthplace: Mount Airy NC
Current Location: Patrick County VA
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brownish
Height: 5'11
Heritage: English/Scotch, some native..
Piercings: None
Tattoos: None


Favourite:
Animal: Wolves
Band/Singer: Bad Religion, Social D, Nofx, Rancid , alots of others
Song: This aint no way to live  by No Use For a Name
Movie:I dont really watch em
Disney Movie: Robin Hood
Disney Show: Phinias and Ferb I guess
Disney Character: I dunno
TV show: Scrubs, Colbert, American Dad
Color: Black, Red and Blue
Food: Pizza
Pizza topping: Pepperoni, Pineapple  and Italian sausage
Ice-Cream Flavor: Rocky Road
Pocky Flavor: Strawberry
Drink (alcoholic): Cant has it.
Soda:Diet Caff Free  Dr. Pepper
Cookie: Oatmeal Cookies
Store: Barnes and Noble Books, FYE, Gamestop, Best Buy
Clothing Brand: used to likve Steve and Barrys before they closed u.u
Shoe Brand: DC or Vans
Season: Summer
Month: June
Convention/Holiday/Festival: Halloween
Flower: Thistle

This or That: That

Sunny or rainy: Sun,pls.
Chocolate or vanilla: Both
Fruit or veggie: Fruit!
Night or day: Dusk
Sour or sweet: Sweet.
Love or money: Love
Phone or in person: Person
Looks or personality: Personality
Coffee or tea: Neither. I'm not allowed to have either and I love tea u.u
Hot or cold: Hot.

Your:

Goal for this year: Resolve medical issues.
Most missed memory: Living around friends.
Best physical feature: My eyes.
First thought waking up: Shut up cat
Hypothetical personality disorder: Psychosis
Preferred type of surgery: I wanna watch but not feel anything...
Sesame street alter ego: Blue
Fairytale alter ego: The snarky lazy one
Most stupid remark: Why am I bleeding?
Worst crime: Doing 80 while passing on the wrong side of the road.
Greatest ambition: To be myself.
Greatest fear: Not having anything to show for myself.
Darkest secret: Open Book here so...
Favorite subject: Art and History
Strangest received gift: A camo pair of knit socks...
Worst habit: Over-analytical.

Do You:

Smoke: No
Drink: No
Curse: Sure, Alot
Shower daily: Bathe everyday
Like thunderstorms: No, they scare me
Dance in the rain: As long as there is no lightning.
Sing: All the time, in the car.
Play an instrument: Nope
Get along with your parents: Mom yes, Dad...sometimes.
Wish on stars: Occasionally
Believe in fate: No
Believe in love at first sight: Yes

Can You:
Drive: Yes, but not allowed to.
Sew: No
Cook: Yes, won best chef in my HS
Speak another language: English .
Dance: No.
Sing: Singing in the car.
Touch your nose with your tongue: Yes
Whistle: Bad but yes
Curl your tongue: Yes

Have You Ever:

Been Drunk: No
Been Stoned/High: No
Eaten Sushi: Yes, and I love it
Been in Love: Yes
Skipped school:  Alot.
Made prank calls: Yes
Sent someone a love letter: No
Stolen something: Yes...i'm a book thief, ask any library...
Cried yourself to sleep: Once

Other Questions:

What annoys you most in a person? Being close minded.
Are you right or left handed? Left
What is your bedtime? around 1 am
Name three things you can't live without: Laptop, Papa, and my family.
What is the color of your room? Greyish white
Do you have any siblings?Does the one at the bottom of the lake count....No.
Do you have any pets? Too many kitties
Would you kill someone you hate for a million dollars? I'd prolly settle for 500k....
What is you middle name? Allen
What are your nicknames? Fruit Wolf
Are you for or against gay marriage? For it.
What are your thoughts on abortion? Do it.
How do you want to die? Fast
What is the largest amount of popsicles that you have eaten on one day? 5.
Would you take a bullet for the one you love? Yes.
What is the last law you’ve broken? Driving.

went to the hospital, seen my doc, he had me go to have blood taken from my left arm, a 12 lead ekg, then was sent to have an echocardiogram done, i got an iv during that so she could inject me with saline to see if my heart had a hole or holes. then i was fitted for a 30 day cardiac monitior , and i have a tilt test on the 7th

My Heart looks great, no holes, and sounds good , so the thinking is , that i have either POTS, or something messed up in my adrenal system

And sick of test after test after test and still having the dizziness...the hot spells, the upset tummy, the bloating, the prickly feeling in my legs....my mood going all to heck if i stand for too long or push myself...I just wish they would DO something to help me...I know they are trying....but come on people....

sorry for ranting...its just built up I guess...

well i've been having blacking out spells ( mainly while driving ) and some other stuff going on so i went to see my Doctor and she took my blood pressure, heart rate, and hooked me to an EKG, actually 2 of em....didnt like what she seen so she sent me to Wake Medicals ER ( one of the best hospitals in the Southeast) to have the cardiologist check me out..

So Mom drives me to Wake, I got blood taken, hooked to 2 more EKG's , an IV line put in , and they monitor me for 3 hours ( boooring, didnt even have a tv)  so the cardiologist looks me over and decides the odd heart rythm i have is nothing to worry about, and that the blackouts are either A: Narcolepsy, or B: POTS , a condition where my body cant adjust to standing up fast or sitting in the same position for too long .

Tl:DR alot of boring tests, a drive, more boring tests, no answer yet but hearts ok, so i have to have more tests.

Open to talk anytime if people want to IM me or something , always looking for new friends ? and happy to hear from old ones too

So today i was on my way home from town and ...kinda passed out behind the wheel..the car hit a ditch, ran up an embankment , and then veered back in the road....luckly i wasnt hurt and was able to get home..but this isnt the first time i have passed out while driving, but the first crash.

Dont worry, I'm ok, and not going to drive till I see a doctor about this .

Hate to be whiny, but why is it so hard to get used to a house with just me, and no one to speak to , or no one to hang with or to call?